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I think I've come to the end of this Beethoven project. The recording won't happen until Monday but as is my tradition it is time for me to release Beethoven into the wind. What follows is a little different but reveals a bit about how I see this stage in performance preparation. It's a bit fanciful, a bit odd perhaps, but it's what works for me and it certainly beats getting myself tied up in knots of anxiety.
- 15 days have been spent selecting, preparing, and putting together my bouquet of balloons - now it's time to let them go and to see what happens.
- If I'm too afraid to let go of my balloons, if I persist in woodshedding, my balloons will stay tightly clenched in my hands until performance day. When I do let go, those balloons will be right where I released them and won't have much of an opportunity to fly.
- If I choose to let go of the balloons now, I will have the indescribable joy of watching those balloons rise and bloom into the sky. At performance time what I will have is an awesome vision of what the music really is to me.
- In the next few days I will take the opportunity to perform my piece for anyone who will listen, not listening for perfection but rather to see where my balloons happen to be on their little journey. I fully anticipate that some may get stuck in trees along the way, some may get shot down by little kids throwing stones, and some may completely disappear out of sight. But those remaining will be mine and they will make me smile.
So here I stand. And here I go. Until next Monday's recording session, happy balloon watching!